Deja Vu

I always end up embarrassing myself. I’ll look back at some posts and vlogs and just wanna take it all down. Go hide somewhere for a while. Social Media: Can’t live with it, can’t live without it. People that proudly proclaim “I don’t give a Fuck what people think of me” usually care the most. It’s so easy to see. Inevitably, human nature requires a feeling of belonging. No one wants to be cast out of the tribe. When you have something to confirm your inclusion, people evidently ‘Liking’ you, it keeps that insecurity at bay. At the same time, it never seems to be enough.

Luckily, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve slowly learned to care more about the important character traits in people. Honest, considerate, and kind have started to triumph over funny, famous, and hAWT. I’ve met some truly boring people out here in L.A. Good-looking people with million+ Instagrams/Youtube/etc. with nothing to say. All they want is more. I’ll recognize these tendencies in myself and that frustrates me.

I just had a crazy wave of Deja Vu pass over me. Deja Vu is fucked. Help.

Thanks for Reading,

Andrew Hales

1:58am

Los Angeles

3 thoughts on “Deja Vu”

  1. I’m glad that this blog exists.

    It makes me feel a lot more human for all the shit that goes through my mind all day.

    I have issues with smoking too much weed, drinking, and all those other quick fix substances. I write lists of goals I am going to start working towards. Working out then not working out.

    It’s just great to know even someone like you who has a ton of social media fame, which I feel like is currency in our generation, still has sleepless nights and weird thoughts.

    So yeah, thanks this made my night. Also the fact you stopped doing pranks to do what you really want to do is admirable as fuck. Keep doing you

    josh

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  3. Andrew, embarrassment of your past means you’ve grown since then. Never be ashamed of your past. Let yourself be flawed. Grow to become better. And relatively, think about how better off this makes you. There are some people who are too proud to even admit being ashamed of themselves and thus never improve.

    Also a great book you should look into. I think you’d really like it if you haven’t read it already: The subtle art of not giving a fuck – Mark Manson. Just read it yesterday. Pretty much summed up a lot of what I was already thinking, but it’s nice to validate your own thoughts through the words of others. It definitely builds self-esteem.

    Also expect me in the future to comment on everything you’ve written here in your blog (past and future posts). Been meaning to do it as sort of a self-project, just never gotten around to it, nor have I ever had the confidence to have an opinion written somewhere in stone.

    Keep doing you Andrew. Always appreciate the blog posts.

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